I am in the process of purging through a few rooms and boxes that should’ve been purged last year. My sweet mother-in-law and I have been attempting to re-organize our home.

There will be an announcement later this week (I know…another!?), but I am not ready to make that news public yet. It is still all too new…all too terrifying…yet exciting at the same time.

As Sonia sorts through all of the knickknacks that I have acquired over the last year, I realize I cannot devote B’s entire first nap to a post, so I dug through the archives of my old journals and decided to share this as it speaks to the heart of my current confusion and fear of the future. This particular entry was written right before I had no job or job prospects and had no idea what was in the future for me. I was struggling with stepping out in faith and understanding why I felt as if my life was in a stall pattern. I had no idea that God was about to bless my patience and persistence in a way I could’ve never anticipated. Enjoy my wide-spanning thoughts!

June 25, 2011

2 Kings Chapter 5

What if God doesn’t owe us an explanation?

God is God even when we “lose our wonder” of who he is and what he’s done.

When we get this right…God is king, not an elected official.

The point of obedience is to acknowledge that there is a God and that he is alive. We obey even when it doesn’t make any sense.

The reason to obey God is God.

God is still God whether we understand his will for our lives or not.

‘Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. Anyone who loves me will be loved by my father and I too will love them and show myself to them.’

Say yes even when you don’t understand.

What is it that God wants of me? What is it that God wants of all of us?

Have the kind of faith that intersects with God’s faithfulness.“